This dream was an emotional experience. It was a reminder of how beautiful I find some of the Buddhist teachings that I have been exposed to. It helps me reconnect with the energy I experienced when Lama Tharchin Rinpoche used to teach in Seattle.
I can condense the instructions that currently animate my Buddhist practice. They are:
What does this mean?
I learned from Tharchin Rinpoche to always pay attention to the impulse to grasp, the impulse to judge with aversion, and the habit of clinging to the sense of a concrete separate self. The more one mindfully witnesses these habits of mind, the more one can see the sources of suffering. These habits create barriers or obstacles to clear perception and direct experience.
As we slowly soften and erode the layers of patterned distortion created by these habits, we can let more experience in, we can be touched more deeply by the gift of embodied life, and by the grace of the mystery of creation.
As such powerful aesthetic perceptions dawn, the next challenge is to let them be, rather than grasping or idealizing or trying to possess and prolong them. Finally, every experience must be let go of so that a new moment can be experienced. The rhythm of letting in, letting be, and letting go, is mirrored by the experience of breathing itself. There is a physiological process of breathing that is a template for the aesthetic process of participating in the play of reality as it arises and unfolds.
My current experience is a mixture of grief and joy. Grief and joy are almost like an old married couple. What is the union of grief and joy? Wisdom? Gratitude? Awe?
My path right now is defined by mindfully and compassionately working with letting in, letting be, and letting go. It is a real practice. It is part of a deepening process of following a ribbon of beauty. That's how I see Dharma practice now: following the ribbon of beauty to its source.
I am grateful for the contact with Tharchin Rinpoche and Yeshe Wangmo and the other teachers that I have met who have opened the window of the dharma to help me feel more deeply connected to reality in all its beauty and complexity.